Dear god, what in God's name have I gotten myself into this time...

Yeah, I decided to kick myself and start submitting things again. Only this time, instead of rants, I'm trying my hand at fan-fiction.

Frankly, it's a nice hobby

So anyway, yeah... if yer bored and like Ouran then check it out... or something, it's all good.

Well, I know I had a good Christmas going for me. Let's see... I got a Zen mp3 player and a first edition cope of my all time favorite book, "The Plague Dogs"

For those you haven't read it or seen the movie, you need to. The movie was AMAZING (The UK version, not the crappy editied american version)

Seriously, if you like dogs, you need to go to youtube and type up the title. The entire unedited movie is up there (of course I'll give you guys the link to the first part anyway) Although I have to admit, the ending made me sob little girly tears...

The book is also amazing, but the movie is more depressing...

Hey, I'm not pushing anything on you guys, just a suggestion from your friendly neighborhood Shadorion

So, heres the link to the trailer if yer intrested :3

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Ah, and for a taste on how violent this movie really gets, heres a small clip

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I'm so sorry that I didn't turn out the way you wished me too. Hell, sometimes I'm sorry with myself.

But you've cut my final cord.

When I ask if if I may join a GSA, you right off the bat turn me down. When I ask you why, you won't even respond. Instead, you'll just roll your eyes and say "Because you're not gay"

I'm sorry mother, but you have absolutly no right to cut me off when I need you the most. I obviously came out of the closet, yet you assume that the closet dosen't even exist to begin with.

I've been wearing men's clothes since seventh grade because it helped my low self-esteem. Because it made me feel BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. Yet when I try to walk into the men's section of a store, you hiss in my ear to go back to the women's section and pick something wether I like it or not.

When I ask you if I could go into gay pride, you roll your eyes at me again, almost as if you know the very fabric of my soul. Guess what? You don't.

And when I tell you that I'm in love, you simply relate my feelings to your friendships when you were in high school. I liston to you and Dad talk and you blame everyone around you, even my therepist.

Why? Why won't you accept me, your own freaking DAUGHTER? And more importantly...

Why won't you talk to me?

Ah, I was tagged, GOSH DARNIT! D=



001. Real name → Whatever you call the monster under your bed
002. Nickname → Shadow or Scarlet
003. Status → Eh?
004. Zodiac sign → Pisces
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Mhm...
007. Middle School → HELL... In a word *Nod*
008. High School → Wouldn't you like to know, creeepy stalker-san
009. Smart → 4.00 GPA, is that smart? :3
010. Hair color → Brown with blonde streaks
011. Long or short → 5'8! >:3
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud. Very loud.
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Camera
015. Health freak → Yus
016. Drink or Smoke? → Hmmm...
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Maaaaaybeee...
018. Eat or Drink → Eat -3-
019. Piercings → Ew, no
020. Tattoos → Ooh, when I graduate! :3

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears. Hated them. Got rid of them. Don't regret it.
024. First best friend →
025. First award → I don't remember xD
026. First crush → Again. Don't remember
027. First pet → Dickens, my 19 year old fossil :3
030. First big birthday → I think when I was.... 5? o.o

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing right now -3-
050. Drinking → Nothing right now -3-
052. I'm about to → Do homework... soon...
053. Listening to → Random tunes
054. Plans for today → Homework. Then bed.
055. Waiting for → Lotsa things

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Ew, no x-x
059. Want to get married? → BWAHAHAAA!!! Legalize gay marriage then hell yes! ;3
060. Careers in mind → Radio Broadcasting or voice acting

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes → Depends really -3-
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller :3
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic -3-
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms -3-
074. Sensitive or loud → Eh, sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Trouble maker >;3

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → I broke my glasses in half once!
081. Ran away from home → Yup
084. Broken someone’s heart → I sure hope not ;-;
085. Been arrested → Ehhh... no
087. Cried when someone died → Mhm

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Eh not really...
090. Miracles → Sometimes
091. Love at first sight → Ehhhhhh...
092. Heaven → Don't know
093. Santa Claus → HELL YES!
094. Sex on the first date → Unless it's date rape =/
095. Kiss on the first date → Ehhhh... no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yeah
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Not right now, I'm having problems with coming out of the closet with my mother. ;-;
099. Do you believe in God → Where was he when we had Bush?

FIRST! EIGHT THINGS YOU MAY KNOW OR NOT KNOW ABOUT ME (NO MAY NOT WANT TO KNOW)
1)I'm an idiot
2)I'm always worried about what others think of me
3)My mother and I have never gotten along
4)I haven't played video games in a while
5)I want a sibling...
6)I often cry myself to sleep for no reason
7)I'm one with the rainbow and currently taken! >3
8)I think about death a lot...





THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
Jackie, Jack, Marly

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
shadow304900, ShadorionDrak, ScarletRacco

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
Uhm, my optimism, my ability to annoy people, and my speaking voice :3

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
I'm an idiot, I'm kinda ugly, and I tend to overdo it in the humor department x3

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
Crowds, Death, and homophobes

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
My friends, my lulz, and my friends

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
A gay pride shirt and plain jeans =3

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS (or artists
Linkin Park, Three Days Grace, and NickleBack


THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
Amish Paradise by Weird Al
Ballad of the Windfish for Legend of Zelda
Dango Daikazoku by..... someone x3

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
Cover myself in nothing but rainbow threads, have a deep, meaningful relationship, and make more friends

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
Someone who isn't afraid to be public with just because we're gay, someone who likes to cuddle, and someone who doesn't mind annoying people

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1)I'm gay
2)I have a cat that is 19 years old
3)I'm secretly a ghost o.o

FOUR PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
A good personality and a good heart. That's all I really care about :3

FOUR THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
Draw, sew, knit, read REALLY boring books (Like Huck Finn)

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
Talking, Video games, Computer

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
Be with my friends, be with my girlfriend on my couch -3-, and be with my friends

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
Radio Broadcasting, Voice acting, anything involving voice work in general

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
Mexico, England and Barbados

THREE KID'S NAMES:
Corshaw, Betsy, and James


THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
Have a wife, help gain gay rights and keep my friends forever -3-

Thank you!!! =33